Breath Deeply & Reconnect

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It would seem that everyone is experiencing a large amount of turbulence in their lives these days.  As each day passes, something adds to the drama and stress of the day to day.

I’ve been feeling the weight of the barrage of seemingly negative occurrences as well.  Recently it would seem the paths are all posted with signs saying, “whatever can go wrong…will”.  I definitely wallowed in the negativity for awhile, because let’s face it, that’s the easiest choice there is.

Being awake, however, means working every single day to be aware of my thoughts and patterns…  To remember that I’m on this Earth to learn from my experiences, not to hide away in the shadows, sobbing quietly.

I try to remind myself regularly that, though the negative vortex is so easy to fall back into, it’s far more rewarding to push myself past it…to transcend it through focused intent and a wonderfully supportive group of soul sisters/brothers.

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With that as my introspective thought while flipping through the mermaid cards, the message they provided told me that now, more than ever, is the time to reconnect with ourselves.

To breath deep the radiant energy available to us all at anytime, if only we would take a moment to focus.

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In that moment, truly focus your attention on how revitalized your body is becoming with the divine exchange of life-bringing energies.

Through this focused breath, we not only reconnect with ourselves, but we reconnect with the pure healing energy of Source / Creation / Earth herself.

By doing so, we keep ourselves grounded and centered, become more stable mentally and emotionally, and we are better able to handle what life sends our way.

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Daily Prompt: Connected

Magic Clouds

 

In my eyes, the sky has been a wondrously magical mirror since the day I was born.

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It’s my most favorite place to look for messages…staring up at the sky, feeling the warm breeze over my face and through my hair, watching the clouds, the stars, the birds… and just ‘Being’.

A place for the Universe to pass notes to our hearts in the giant classroom of life, if only we are willing to take a time out now and then to tune ourselves in.

Divine little notes that carry the messages our hearts are longing to hear and feel…but our minds so desperately want to keep away from us…fearful of the potential for pain.

The key is to listen with your heart and soul, not with your mind or ears.

The sky has been a such great source of introspective inspiration over the years…it has a truly primal magic and energy about it.  Never limited to those stereotypical, ‘happy-go-lucky’, fluffy white clouds.

I can always ask a question silently, almost willing the answer to appear, and the clouds will begin to morph and shape themselves into the answer I need.

I’ve also found that the shadowy mysteries hidden deep within the dark, ominous storm clouds can hold the most profound and crucial messages of all.

In my experience, the  weather seems to completely mirror the state of my mind, my energetic field.

Anger and depression seem to call forth the stormy rain clouds and high intensity lightning.  This strangely always brings a comforting peace to my soul… a reminder from the Universe that we are capable of standing tall and strong through the worst storms, while still maintaining our inner peace.

It takes consistent conscious effort to maintain that level of stillness and zen..

I remember one specific point in my life where I begged and pleaded with the Universe to help me understand where I was headed…there I was, knelt down in the grass in the middle of an emptying park…sunset warm on my eyelids as I sobbed uncontrollably.

When I finally looked up and beyond my tears, the clouds had formed into the shape of a camel… A desert creature who wisely prepares itself for the unknown future, sent to remind me gently that I can indeed trust my own intuition to succeed.

I thought, “well gee, thanks Universe…that’s a bit of a ‘cop out’ but okay…”  Instead of learning the lesson that the Universe, and the clouds, provided to me, I continued following the same path with the same patterns of behavior.

The message was supposed to incite wisdom and push me to pick myself up. When the Universe finally stepped in to “fix” things, trust me when I say it wasn’t very pretty.

We are constantly being presented with situations that are intended to remind us of our abilities within.

If changes have to occur on your behalf because you stuck your head in the desert sand and refused to acknowledge or take action, it’s not going to be easy to get through and likely very painful.

As we progress,  and especially if we are resistant, the lessons become more intense…

No one ever said our paths would be paved with complete ease and comfort.  Sometimes we need a little hard truth…a little wake up slap from the Universe.

I honestly believe it’s important for us to utilize every tool we have available in order to look for the road signs that appear along our paths. It’s a great honor to me, knowing that I have methods available to me that our ancestors have passed down for so many generations.

I am so very thankful to be a part of a generation / timeline where these methods are coming to the forefront to be honored and integrated once again.

I respect those around me so much for walking each step of their path fully with the kind of integrity and strength that no words or ‘action movie’ could ever fully embody.

To be so aware of yourself, your thoughts and feelings, as well as those of the people around you while simultaneously trying to pull yourself through some rough and stormy weather…

That takes some serious dedication, honesty, and genuine vulnerability.

Word Prompt: DesertStorm & Clouds

Entangled Reflections

Reflections of past…present…future…

Two souls entangled in love…in pain…in tears…

Each Sacred, each Divine…

One full of compassion…confusion…fear…

The other lost in ego…anger…resentment…

One wonders what could’ve been…if the other could’ve changed…

The other asks ‘why me’‘what punishment is this’

They can never go back…

Wounds so lovingly inflicted…

Both and neither are truly to blame…

The end of a contract…a soul agreement…

A voice in the wind softly whispered…‘never the same…never the same…’

Angelic Presence 


Glimmering, shining, glistening, shimmering, sparkling…

Radiant lights of all shapes and colors…

Whirling around us all throughout our journey in this life time…

A little support for your career here…a little protection from unseen forces there…

They truly only wish the best for us…

And within the laws of this Universe, they help whenever they have an opportunity…

Truly spiritual beings.

Embodiment of love and compassion.

Divine truth and justice.

Executed swiftly with unstoppable will and intention.

I feel blessed and honored in their mere presence…

 

Much Love & Light,

Emily Shultz

The Year of Energetic Excellence | 2017

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Firstly…let me apologize to those who were left hanging on a branch, anxiously awaiting the next piece of wisdom or introspective discussion.  I’ve been working very hard these last few months on my own path of self-improvement (and certifications!).

I’m excited to finally say that I am a certified Usui Reiki Master but even more excited to announce that another Reiki certification is in the works (Crystal Reiki Master).  I’m working very hard to learn everything I can so that I can share my knowledge, wisdom, energy and joy with all of you.

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In the next year, there will be an online course available which will go through each of the Archangels that I’ve chosen especially for this purpose.  The course will teach you everything you need to know about each of these magnificent energetic beings as well as how you can begin the process of honoring and calling on them within your day to day lives.

Each video will be Reiki charged for a specific purpose, and I’ll explain that in more depth within the video as well.  There will be a focused meditation where you will receive the full extent of the Reiki healing energy as well as the healing energies of the Archangels.  This course should be life-changing and transformative for those that are ready to really dig in and connect.

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Because I’m working with the Archangels, I also feel the need to state that, though this would likely be “extra enjoyable” for those following a certain religion, this course is in no way at all geared towards any specific religion and will not be pushing any beliefs…

No religious over-tones here!

I intend to create a safe place for those that wish to experience powerful healing energies and aren’t closed to certain modalities based purely on religious beliefs.  All religions are respected and honored.  Energy is energy and has no ‘religious boundary’.

So….big things are coming in 2017 – hold onto your hats!!!

Feel free to email / contact me with any questions or comments.  I welcome everyone’s input and opinions, things you’d like to see added in the Archangel’s course/meditations or maybe your interested in a different sort of course…if so, let me know what it is!  I love encompassing new modalities and energies into my practices.

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Happy Yule!!!

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Much Love & Light,

Emily Shultz

Checking in…Lookin’ for Your Feedback!

Hi Everyone!

I know it’s been a little while since I’ve written a blog.  I’ve been really busy being productive, learning new things and coming up with new ideas that I can share with you all!  😊

I wanted to ask those who are interested to take a few minutes to answer a few questions, and leave me some feedback.

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It’s just two questions and a comment field and it would really help me determine what my next steps will be.

Keep in mind that the programs mentioned would be offered both in person as well as virtually, and all include Reiki energy.

Thank you so very much and please feel free to shoot me an EMAIL any time with questions or helpful input.

Silence Within a Thunderstorm

I’m going to be straight forward… These last few months have been mentally, barn-1364280_1280emotionally, physically and spiritually challenging on so many levels.  The moment I felt I could catch my breath, I was thrown right back into some other tumultuous life lesson.  To say the least, my energy is very low, I feel very drained…but not in a bad way.  I am eternally grateful for the lessons I learned, and the growth that these whirlwinds of energy cleared a path for.  Now is just the time for a brief rest and some introspective reflection on my path so far.

That said, I’m writing this post to reflect on the cleansing affect that a rainstorm truly has for us, if we open our hearts and allow ourselves to receive it.

Today, after many moments of “am I angry or about to cry…”, a very large and vocal summer storm started rolling in.  At first the sky became a dark, smokey black and the trees began to bend with the wind.  A light sprinkle, an ominous rumble.  I smiled.  Every fiber of my being wanted to be outside in that rain.

Since I was very little, storms were calming to me…the cool breeze, the feeling of water showering down from the heavens… I believe it’s cleansing for the entire body, right down to the soul…  Divine little blessings of love, joy, peace, comfort, protection and light within each little droplet.  I imagine that their energetic blessings are immediately connected with my soul as each drop splashes onto the surface of my body.

I found myself sitting in the rain for at least twenty minutes today.  Feeling the heavens bless me with it’s cleansing energy…feeling the old feelings and negative energies being washed away, right where I stood.  I cried a little…I paced around…I sat contemplatively…I splashed through puddles…I was within those moments, completely present with myself and how I needed to process these energies – my silence within a thunderstorm.

 I am so eternally grateful for this connection with the storms and I highly recommend it to anyone willing to brave it themselves (do be careful of lightning though – always be cautious and safe)!

I will also be providing a meditation related to this same thing very soon – stay tuned!  🙂

Written By: Emily Shultz

 


Daily Prompt: Silence

Sacred Flame of Creation

She is the Sacred Flame of Creation,

Her Body, the Temple.

She is the Magnificent Mountain,

steadfast and strong.

She spreads her wings to the Winds of Change,

soaring ever higher.

She is the Vessel of Holy Water,

her tears, the nourishing rain.

She stands alone and unafraid,

her Inner Knowing embodied.

Radiant Golden Light flows from her Higher Heart,

surrounding all she touches with Warmth, Comfort and Love.

She is a modern-day Energetic Warrior,

the Huntress of Evil and hatred.

Her mere presence invokes the Compassionate Will of Divinity itself.


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How do you define yourself as a person of the human condition?

What is the truth behind who you really are, where you came from, where your path has led you so far?

What scars have you acquired along the way that molded your thoughts and opinions of the now?

Have you pushed others away due to your irrational fears of abandonment or to protect yourself from pain?

Would it really be so bad to let someone in once and awhile?  So, maybe you will get hurt, but maybe you’ll also have another once in a cycle experience that will forever mold you into a different human entirely.

Let go of judgment on yourself.  Your strength and perseverance have gotten you this far in these life times and will continue to do so whether you realize it now or in the next contract.

Live, laugh, breath, run, swim, talk…experience!  Just be you…entirely you...JUST BE…and let the rest fall into place exactly when and where it should.

Try to relax sweet one, have faith that you are protected and loved endlessly.

It all comes back to these labels you all seem to hold so dearly.  If you held each other as much as you hold these jaded judgments and thoughts, the world would have already known True Peace.  This is not to scold, only to give perspective on where the negative labeling and judgment leads.

No good will come until we learn to love ourselves and begin to pour that into the melting pot of the core of all things.


written By: Emily Shultz

Awake and Confused

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Sweet ones, you fear so much the feminine, divine or otherwise…

You fear that embracing the feminine side of yourself will inevitably make you weak…vulnerable and open to attacks.

What if is is exactly what you need right now?  What if embracing your feminine side IS how you step fully into your power?

What if it is your aversion to that beautiful womanly side of yourself that creates the disconnect you feel with your soul…the hidden key to embodying your power fully?

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Unfortunately, history doesn’t paint a picture of strong women because men fear what they can’t understand.

To be a woman is to hold the power of creating and nurturing life…

It is also the seat of wisdom, compassion and magic.

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Don’t limit your feminine energy because of what you believe you need to be in order to fit into society.

You didn’t come here to fit in.

You didn’t come here to play small.

You came here to love, create, inspire, dance, laugh and spread joy.

You came to set a new standard in society…

To break the old patterns and pave the way for love and light.

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At times this existence of ours can be very confusing…being awake in a sea of souls that are still very much asleep isn’t easy by any means but it’s what we chose to do.

To be the peaceful ambassadors and compassionate guides for those souls who are beginning to rub the sleep from their eyes, like children who have been asleep in the back of the car for hours on end.

Remember to embrace your soul fully…in all of it’s shimmering glory.

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Daily Prompt: Confused

 

Complicated Process

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Today I write to be 100% real with myself, and you all.

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I’ve come to realize that sometimes, you just have to swirl around in your negative vortex for awhile until you can catch your wind and truly begin to open your eyes.

This past year has been a trying one, emotionally – physically – mentally – even energetically.  Grief, emotional trauma, fear, severe anxiety, resentment, self-loathing…you get the picture.divider1_by_s_alamence-d7aq28n

What I share from my journal today, is a glimpse into the depths of my mind, my thought process, and of course my heart.  It’s HUMANly impossible to write without using your heart, no matter how you flip the page.  Every thought you have is influenced by the experiences of your heart.  The key is to write everything down and begin to reflect on the meaning behind your thoughts.  To truly get to know yourself you need to become your own best friend…again.

Honor your thoughts, for they are all valid in their own mysterious ways…some only exist because of some aspect of you that wants to be healed and others exist because of love, gratitude, wonder, and joy.  The only way to make those you perceive as “positive” stick around more often is by honoring and holding space for your own emotional healing.  Hiding away because you fear reliving your past isn’t conducive to your personal growth.  It stunts it.  You become completely stuck in a negativity tar pit, feeling like you are clawing endlessly with no progress at all.divider1_by_s_alamence-d7aq28n

Right about now you might be thinking…

“Why is this woman openly about to share so much of her heart with the world?”

My response?

Because we are ALL vulnerable and in need of a guiding hand and a wise word now and then… I know that there are people out there, right now, thinking and feeling the same sort of things.  It’s time for us to start being more vulnerable with each other.  It’s time to stop pretending we all live these perfect little lives, that nothing bothers us, and we are all “just fine”.  Maybe you are just fine, maybe your life is perfect, maybe you haven’t had any issues at all in your life.  That’s great…I am joyous for you, truly, but I recommend you keep scrolling.  This is a place where I encourage you to open your heart freely…get really honest with your feelings…and hopefully find some portion of this message that could potentially be healing for you in some way.divider1_by_s_alamence-d7aq28n

And so with all of that out of the way…here’s the main event: 

I feel unstable.

I feel non-self-sufficient.

I feel like a constant burden.

I feel like a recluse.

I feel unproductive.

I feel lazy.

I feel unsuccessful.

I feel useless.

I feel wasteful.

I feel like there’s nothing special or unique about me.

I feel I’ll never amount to anything.

Unattainable success.

Weak boundaries.

– ANGER – FEAR – FRUSTRATION –

Going nowhere really f*$@ing fast!

Why don’t I trust myself?  When did that s*@# start?

Why do I loathe myself so?

How do I shift to a better self-image?

Complete and total frustration.

Rage and anger. – Why do I feel angry?

At this point, I began listing every single scar I could possibly think of from my past.

No closure?

Resentment.

Lack of support.

Fear teachings.

The world is unsafe when you are thin, pretty, attractive.

Reinforced feelings of self-mistrust -> Only able to make bad decisions…

Never fit in anywhere.  Don’t belong.  Too sensitive.

Memories of always being put down, made fun of, hurt…

Broken wings.

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And so my guides began to explain to me: 

So much unaddressed emotional trauma and stress can only be expected to begin manifesting in the physical realm…so that you can’t push it away anymore.

Peace and serenity doesn’t come to you… You have to look for it… Under every rock, stone, scar, etc.

You can never have any peace until you are willing to look your inner self in the eyes and get REAL!

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As I began to grasp what I was being told…

Hate is a sign of continuing the victim role… “I hate ___ because it allows me to avoid ____.”

You can only feel hatred for something you once loved…

Feeling betrayed and used… Feeling like there is no justice, no closure.

What is the violence and abuse I’ve dealt with in my lifetime supposed to have taught me?  It’s easy to be hurt?  People shouldn’t be trusted?

You’ll never feel trusting of others until you really begin to trust yourself.

Achieving new heights, gaining new abilities or talents will only open me up to being exploited.

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My mind is being over run by thoughts of stomach, neck, and shoulder pain… *tears*  How do I transform the way I think of these things so that I don’t become frozen in fear and inaction?

I constantly doubt my worthiness to receive love.

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At this point…I needed to pull a “Return of Spirit” card (by Cheryl Lee Harnish)…”GIFTED”…

(In an attempt to refocus myself, noticing that my thoughts seemed to be all over the place…here, there and everywhere.)

Did the situation I asked about trigger self-worth issues?

Feeling disregarded and tossed aside; empty promises?

What are you grasping for externally?

What if you were to realize that within that moment of grasping for some external comfort, in that action itself, your inner guru is calling for your attention.  Calling for you to open your eyes to the truth beneath the surface…

Small steps…everyday…to help you embody little bits of your power at a time; to ease yourself into what stepping in could truly feel like.

We do not laugh at you…but are ironically and dryly amused at how much beauty and magic you are willing to block yourself from out of pure fear of what you do not know or understand.

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How do I know when I’ve stepped into my power?

When you stop having to ask and look for outside validation.

No one was sent to validate your power.  Only you know the truth of your own power.  How could anyone ever validate the beauty and majesty of what is yours and only yours?

Why do you incessantly look for the cause of a symptom instead of just focusing on what steps to take toward solutions?

The cause of your symptoms are in the past…

Traveling back to the past only relives the issues and reinforces their affects and power over you.  Look instead for positive solutions and focus your vision on what the healed version of you will look like once you’ve found the right solution.

Why do you feel there is something wrong with you the way that you are, right now, in this very moment?

Are you comparing yourself to past you?  Future you?

When do you get to just be happy with where and who you are within the moment?

At what point do you accept your past to move through the present and wait patiently, without expectations or stories, for the future to unfold?

You are such a complex and beautiful creature for so many magical reasons… Your physical appearance could never even dream to compare with the rare beauty within you.  Why focus on something so dim as a street lamp when you have the entire cosmos within you?divider1_by_s_alamence-d7aq28n

To close off this journal entry, I wrote down an extremely quick and simple prayer for a little help as I navigate my ever-evolving path: 

I pray for strength and courage.
I pray for peace and serenity.
I pray for honor and integrity.
I pray for wisdom and truth.
I pray for health and vitality.
I pray for love and compassion.

These are the qualities and gifts that I know in my heart are truly necessary on every step of my path.divider1_by_s_alamence-d7aq28n

Daily Prompt: Complicated

Stubborn Warrior Goddess

You never want the news that someone within your cherished inner circle has something so ominous as cancer… It’s the hardest news there is.

Powerless to provide this person so near and dear to you with a solution or relief.  You want so badly to just wave a hand and miraculously cure them.  No words, none of your actions, quite express how much support you hold for them in your heart…

Your heart sings with the vibrations…every beat and thump creates a marvelous symphony of love, light and serenity.

This is the part of your divine self that understands… even if you don’t know how to express it with words, your thoughts are always understood within your own perspective / mind.  Because your thoughts create your reality, you’re able to express your truest intentions and best wishes without the slightest verbal or visual cues…

It is a vibration that you create so that the energy radiates from your heart center, based on your thoughts, feelings and intentions.  That is what allows your support and love to be felt by others without physical action.

My dear soul sister, Christina, is now recovering from a major surgery for breast cancer…my heart aches for the stress and pain she has already endured as well as what’s to come.

From the beginning, this tough, stubborn lady stood tall, head high…facing the dark demon head on was the only option worth considering.  She refused to allow cancer to win this battle…stubborn for all the right reasons…

A fiercely dedicated momma, wife and warrior goddess, all wrapped into one beautiful soul.  She takes no pity and her mere presence commands great honor and respect.

I’ve truly been inspired by this amazing woman…she has shown me everything it means to be a fearless warrior with both gentle grace and untamed humor.

I witnessed the divine reflection of our Mother Gaia through her strength and perseverance…remembering that even the Earth is sometimes shaken from her core…but it never makes her any less stable (strong) or everlastingly beautiful…its just another part of the cycle…

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It is an honor and a divine blessing to have someone so special and wondrous in my soul family.

Christina’s entire soul family has been working very hard to help with the ever-increasing hospital costs… if you or anyone you know may be able to assist in any way, it is truly all so very greatly appreciated.

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Daily Prompt: Stubborn

Just Relax…What a Joke?

Just relax, they say… 

 

As though I wouldn’t want to have this seemingly unattainable Utopian ideal manifested within my reality…if only I could catch my breath…one breath…one breath that isn’t full of the total fear of some impending doom that my body knows for certain is imminent but my mind is still thoroughly questioning… Sometimes it’s like a bad dream where you are watching things happen to you with zero control over what is going on.

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Just relax…

As though the memory of being choke slammed into a school locker by the person you most expected to keep you safe from harm can just be erased…as though 5 years of repeated mental / physical abuse and violence during my most sensitive developmental years can simply be erased, forgotten and “relaxed away”…divider4

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Thanks to our cave-dwelling ancestors…

That sort of violence isn’t so easy to just erase from your memory.  Your brain forever feels the need to remind you of every little horror, in an effort to keep you from repeating the same mistakes.  It’s just a fact about our brain chemistry, hand-me-downs from our cave-dwelling ancestors.  That young man, so many many years ago, left bruises and scars that continue to haunt the deepest darkest recesses of my own mental prison… thrown back in a moment with a single sound, smell, person, or thought…

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Diving Deeper

In my opening message, I briefly discussed my struggle with anxiety and PTSD but I wanted to delve a little deeper.  I can only hope that this helps those suffering to know that they are not alone and those who love someone suffering from it to have a more clear understanding of what it’s really like.  For a lot of us, the most frustrating part of this disorder is trying to explain it to your loved ones.

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The Avoidance Troll

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Because of that, I spent a lot of time pretending I was a reclusive cave troll, avoiding everyone and everything, never wanting to leave my house.

Life has really thrown me for an energetic loop this time around.  A lot of old patterns and habits need to be cleared and a lot of negativity needs to be washed from my soul.

Overwhelmed by disappointment in my life and lack of achievements…angry with myself for being “weak” and just generally feeling like I couldn’t pick myself up.

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Universal Conspiracy

It felt like the entire universe was conspiring to make me unhappy and unsuccessful, to take away everything I had worked so hard for away.  First my old job, my old home, then my car, my freedom, my privacy, and now my ability to eat and digest food without pain.

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Why is this happening to me??

Of course this is a completely victim rooted mindset but sometimes it’s hard to see that when you’re in the midst of it all.  I’m not going to put myself down for being susceptible to humanness and feeling how I felt but I am going to do my damnedest to climb out of the pit of despair and take the steps I need to in order to do better for myself.divider4

Rationalizing Irrational Triggers

PTSD can trigger a very complex mixture of feelings and reactions with no real rational explanation / cause…accompanied by complete awareness of the irrational behavior and severe frustration / anger within for still being triggered after so many years.

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Ever Vigilant

Going through every day on the edge of your seat, hyper aware of your surroundings because you know deep down that anything can become a trigger.  The more aware you are, the less likely something will surprise you.  It’s never 100% fool proof, there is always the possibility of some unexpected random noise that will cause you to jump out of your skin.  Something that triggers every cell in your body to go on high alert…heart racing, hands trembling.  The more relaxed you are, the more susceptible you are…so of course it must be better to always be on “high alert”…  At least that’s the message you keep receiving from your brain, whether true or false, the message doesn’t feel any less “real”.

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Dark Times

These days are the darkest, the ones that make you feel like you can’t function as a normal person anymore, make you feel broken…weak…scattered…

Sometimes you wake up into an anxiety attack that just meerkat-255564_640continues throughout the day, worse but never better.  No matter how much you try to relax, no matter how many times you try to sit and quiet your mind, relax your body, every fiber of your being stays on high alert.

The smallest change in noise level makes you jump out of your skin…pulse racing…blood pressure rising…your entire body feeling like its about to fly out of a speeding train… Then nothing…yet still your muscles are tense, still your brain races a hundred miles a second.divider4

Exit Strategy

You examine every detail of your surroundings
to  be sure you can exit quickly and quietly.

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 Forever reminding yourself: never stay too long…never face your back away from the wall…never make eye contact…trust no one…try to make the noises feel less like they are eating away at your mind…your peace…

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Now and then it escapes…

It escapes in tears…frustration, anger, depression, fear, stress, anxiety…all of this plus more…guilt for the people around you that deal with your broken method of living life…sad-597089_1280

Praying every night that tomorrow you won’t have another episode or event…every night hoping that tomorrow the world won’t be such a trigger…that you could just interact with your surroundings, without having to look over your shoulder…without constantly being on edge…without feeling like a failed member of society…

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I try to remind myself regularly that I’m a f***ing survivor…

Most will never even be able to imagine the kind of strength it takes to live a life this way…

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This is the only life you’ve got to live right now…

Sure it takes a lot just to keep moving forward.

Some day things will be better, some day you will see the gifts hidden within this experience and you’ll finally know true gratitude…

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Stay strong…

Keep trying…

Love yourself…

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Find your motivation, your spark, that inner joy…

It is in the moment that you feel you’ve gone metaphor-1209691_640absolutely no where in your life, like you
have finally hit rock bottom, that you must find your inner strength and pull yourself up.  No, it’s not easy.  That’s not what you came here to do.  
You came here to test yourself and push your own boundaries, to please your heart and soul…and to find your inner peace… 

These are definitely times of trials and tribulations sweet ones, but there is no pass or fail; everything will unfold harmoniously as it should but you must allow it.

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There is so much love and support for you if you would just open your heart to it.

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Repeat the statements below to yourself regularly and watch how your self-perception shifts and becomes more positive.

I AM  ≡  LOVE

I AM    JOY

I AM    PEACE

I AM    WISDOM

I AM    BEAUTY

I AM  ≡  LIGHT

 

This is a way for you to remind your subconscious of your own divinity…your own power.

Everything you have ever needed to heal yourself can be found within. 

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Some people just have a bit of a longer journey to get their answers than others.

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No Matter What…

…no one and no thing can ever change who your inner being is, what you stand for and how you stand for it.

That peaceful warrior is within you… if only you would let your light shine as brightly as the night sky!

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Written by: Emily Shultz

Daily Prompt: Joke