She is the Sacred Flame of Creation,
Her Body, the Temple.
She is the Magnificent Mountain,
steadfast and strong.
She spreads her wings to the Winds of Change,
soaring ever higher.
She is the Vessel of Holy Water,
her tears, the nourishing rain.
She stands alone and unafraid,
her Inner Knowing embodied.
Radiant Golden Light flows from her Higher Heart,
surrounding all she touches with Warmth, Comfort and Love.
She is a modern-day Energetic Warrior,
the Huntress of Evil and hatred.
Her mere presence invokes the Compassionate Will of Divinity itself.
How do you define yourself as a person of the human condition?
What scars have you acquired along the way that molded your thoughts and opinions of the now?
Have you pushed others away due to your irrational fears of abandonment or to protect yourself from pain?
Would it really be so bad to let someone in once and awhile? So, maybe you will get hurt, but maybe you’ll also have another once in a cycle experience that will forever mold you into a different human entirely.
Let go of judgment on yourself. Your strength and perseverance have gotten you this far in these life times and will continue to do so whether you realize it now or in the next contract.
Live, laugh, breath, run, swim, talk…experience! Just be you…entirely you...JUST BE…and let the rest fall into place exactly when and where it should.
Try to relax sweet one, have faith that you are protected and loved endlessly.
It all comes back to these labels you all seem to hold so dearly. If you held each other as much as you hold these jaded judgments and thoughts, the world would have already known True Peace. This is not to scold, only to give perspective on where the negative labeling and judgment leads.
written By: Emily Shultz
Sweet ones, you fear so much the feminine, divine or otherwise…
You fear that embracing the feminine side of yourself will inevitably make you weak…vulnerable and open to attacks.
What if is is exactly what you need right now? What if embracing your feminine side IS how you step fully into your power?
What if it is your aversion to that beautiful womanly side of yourself that creates the disconnect you feel with your soul…the hidden key to embodying your power fully?
Unfortunately, history doesn’t paint a picture of strong women because men fear what they can’t understand.
It is also the seat of wisdom, compassion and magic.
Don’t limit your feminine energy because of what you believe you need to be in order to fit into society.
You didn’t come here to fit in.
You didn’t come here to play small.
You came here to love, create, inspire, dance, laugh and spread joy.
You came to set a new standard in society…
At times this existence of ours can be very confusing…being awake in a sea of souls that are still very much asleep isn’t easy by any means but it’s what we chose to do.
To be the peaceful ambassadors and compassionate guides for those souls who are beginning to rub the sleep from their eyes, like children who have been asleep in the back of the car for hours on end.
You never want the news that someone within your cherished inner circle has something so ominous as cancer… It’s the hardest news there is.
Powerless to provide this person so near and dear to you with a solution or relief. You want so badly to just wave a hand and miraculously cure them. No words, none of your actions, quite express how much support you hold for them in your heart…
This is the part of your divine self that understands… even if you don’t know how to express it with words, your thoughts are always understood within your own perspective / mind. Because your thoughts create your reality, you’re able to express your truest intentions and best wishes without the slightest verbal or visual cues…
It is a vibration that you create so that the energy radiates from your heart center, based on your thoughts, feelings and intentions. That is what allows your support and love to be felt by others without physical action.
My dear soul sister, Christina, is now recovering from a major surgery for breast cancer…my heart aches for the stress and pain she has already endured as well as what’s to come.
From the beginning, this tough, stubborn lady stood tall, head high…facing the dark demon head on was the only option worth considering. She refused to allow cancer to win this battle…stubborn for all the right reasons…
A fiercely dedicated momma, wife and warrior goddess, all wrapped into one beautiful soul. She takes no pity and her mere presence commands great honor and respect.
I’ve truly been inspired by this amazing woman…she has shown me everything it means to be a fearless warrior with both gentle grace and untamed humor.
I witnessed the divine reflection of our Mother Gaia through her strength and perseverance…remembering that even the Earth is sometimes shaken from her core…but it never makes her any less stable (strong) or everlastingly beautiful…its just another part of the cycle…
It is an honor and a divine blessing to have someone so special and wondrous in my soul family.
Christina’s entire soul family has been working very hard to help with the ever-increasing hospital costs… if you or anyone you know may be able to assist in any way, it is truly all so very greatly appreciated.
As though I wouldn’t want to have this seemingly unattainable Utopian ideal manifested within my reality…if only I could catch my breath…one breath…one breath that isn’t full of the total fear of some impending doom that my body knows for certain is imminent but my mind is still thoroughly questioning… Sometimes it’s like a bad dream where you are watching things happen to you with zero control over what is going on.
As though the memory of being choke slammed into a school locker by the person you most expected to keep you safe from harm can just be erased…as though 5 years of repeated mental / physical abuse and violence during my most sensitive developmental years can simply be erased, forgotten and “relaxed away”…
That sort of violence isn’t so easy to just erase from your memory. Your brain forever feels the need to remind you of every little horror, in an effort to keep you from repeating the same mistakes. It’s just a fact about our brain chemistry, hand-me-downs from our cave-dwelling ancestors. That young man, so many many years ago, left bruises and scars that continue to haunt the deepest darkest recesses of my own mental prison… thrown back in a moment with a single sound, smell, person, or thought…
In my opening message, I briefly discussed my struggle with anxiety and PTSD but I wanted to delve a little deeper. I can only hope that this helps those suffering to know that they are not alone and those who love someone suffering from it to have a more clear understanding of what it’s really like. For a lot of us, the most frustrating part of this disorder is trying to explain it to your loved ones.
Because of that, I spent a lot of time pretending I was a reclusive cave troll, avoiding everyone and everything, never wanting to leave my house.
Life has really thrown me for an energetic loop this time around. A lot of old patterns and habits need to be cleared and a lot of negativity needs to be washed from my soul.
Overwhelmed by disappointment in my life and lack of achievements…angry with myself for being “weak” and just generally feeling like I couldn’t pick myself up.
It felt like the entire universe was conspiring to make me unhappy and unsuccessful, to take away everything I had worked so hard for away. First my old job, my old home, then my car, my freedom, my privacy, and now my ability to eat and digest food without pain.
Of course this is a completely victim rooted mindset but sometimes it’s hard to see that when you’re in the midst of it all. I’m not going to put myself down for being susceptible to humanness and feeling how I felt but I am going to do my damnedest to climb out of the pit of despair and take the steps I need to in order to do better for myself.
PTSD can trigger a very complex mixture of feelings and reactions with no real rational explanation / cause…accompanied by complete awareness of the irrational behavior and severe frustration / anger within for still being triggered after so many years.
Going through every day on the edge of your seat, hyper aware of your surroundings because you know deep down that anything can become a trigger. The more aware you are, the less likely something will surprise you. It’s never 100% fool proof, there is always the possibility of some unexpected random noise that will cause you to jump out of your skin. Something that triggers every cell in your body to go on high alert…heart racing, hands trembling. The more relaxed you are, the more susceptible you are…so of course it must be better to always be on “high alert”… At least that’s the message you keep receiving from your brain, whether true or false, the message doesn’t feel any less “real”.
These days are the darkest, the ones that make you feel like you can’t function as a normal person anymore, make you feel broken…weak…scattered…
Sometimes you wake up into an anxiety attack that just continues throughout the day, worse but never better. No matter how much you try to relax, no matter how many times you try to sit and quiet your mind, relax your body, every fiber of your being stays on high alert.
The smallest change in noise level makes you jump out of your skin…pulse racing…blood pressure rising…your entire body feeling like its about to fly out of a speeding train… Then nothing…yet still your muscles are tense, still your brain races a hundred miles a second.
You examine every detail of your surroundings
to be sure you can exit quickly and quietly.
Forever reminding yourself: never stay too long…never face your back away from the wall…never make eye contact…trust no one…try to make the noises feel less like they are eating away at your mind…your peace…
It escapes in tears…frustration, anger, depression, fear, stress, anxiety…all of this plus more…guilt for the people around you that deal with your broken method of living life…
Praying every night that tomorrow you won’t have another episode or event…every night hoping that tomorrow the world won’t be such a trigger…that you could just interact with your surroundings, without having to look over your shoulder…without constantly being on edge…without feeling like a failed member of society…
I try to remind myself regularly that I’m a f***ing survivor…
Most will never even be able to imagine the kind of strength it takes to live a life this way…
Sure it takes a lot just to keep moving forward.
Some day things will be better, some day you will see the gifts hidden within this experience and you’ll finally know true gratitude…
It is in the moment that you feel you’ve gone absolutely no where in your life, like you
have finally hit rock bottom, that you must find your inner strength and pull yourself up. No, it’s not easy. That’s not what you came here to do. You came here to test yourself and push your own boundaries, to please your heart and soul…and to find your inner peace…
These are definitely times of trials and tribulations sweet ones, but there is no pass or fail; everything will unfold harmoniously as it should but you must allow it.
Repeat the statements below to yourself regularly and watch how your self-perception shifts and becomes more positive.
This is a way for you to remind your subconscious of your own divinity…your own power.
Everything you have ever needed to heal yourself can be found within.
Some people just have a bit of a longer journey to get their answers than others.
…no one and no thing can ever change who your inner being is, what you stand for and how you stand for it.
That peaceful warrior is within you… if only you would let your light shine as brightly as the night sky!
Written by: Emily Shultz
It would seem that everyone is experiencing a large amount of turbulence in their lives these days. As each day passes, something adds to the drama and stress of the day to day.
I’ve been feeling the weight of the barrage of seemingly negative occurrences as well. Recently it would seem the paths are all posted with signs saying, “whatever can go wrong…will”. I definitely wallowed in the negativity for awhile, because let’s face it, that’s the easiest choice there is.
Being awake, however, means working every single day to be aware of my thoughts and patterns… To remember that I’m on this Earth to learn from my experiences, not to hide away in the shadows, sobbing quietly.
I try to remind myself regularly that, though the negative vortex is so easy to fall back into, it’s far more rewarding to push myself past it…to transcend it through focused intent and a wonderfully supportive group of soul sisters/brothers.
With that as my introspective thought while flipping through the mermaid cards, the message they provided told me that now, more than ever, is the time to reconnect with ourselves.
To breath deep the radiant energy available to us all at anytime, if only we would take a moment to focus.
In that moment, truly focus your attention on how revitalized your body is becoming with the divine exchange of life-bringing energies.
Through this focused breath, we not only reconnect with ourselves, but we reconnect with the pure healing energy of Source / Creation / Earth herself.
By doing so, we keep ourselves grounded and centered, become more stable mentally and emotionally, and we are better able to handle what life sends our way.
Constantly searching for the ‘answers’ to questions we don’t even fully grasp the concepts to yet…
I honestly believe that we all have a unique purpose to fulfill on this planet but it would be entirely too presumptuous of me to even begin to categorize them at all.
A person’s purpose is their own…that’s why we all wander so aimlessly…there’s no possible way we could ask someone for directions to a place we haven’t even begun to think of yet.
How could we ever experience anything new if we constantly stayed in our patterns of actions each day…no change at all, always doing the exact same things in the same exact places…day in, day out..? How dull and dreary… Life was designed to throw a curve-ball at us every now and then, in order to trigger us to evolve and grow as humans.
So of course, at times, we can become a bit lost in our own personal typhoon of stress, emotion and strife. It is within that very moment when we feel we have no where else to go…not one single option left to save us from our terrifying peril…that we become aimless and confused.
If we’re lucky, it’s only a moment before clarity strikes us like a bolt of lightning sent by Zeus himself.
Unfortunately, there are other times where we can’t get out of it so easily…cursed to wander around aimlessly for weeks…months…or years…like a tumbleweed in an especially dusty breeze.
I feel like we often get ourselves stuck in being the “aimless wanderer” because we are too afraid and resistant of facing our new path head-on…to come to grips with the reality of where we should be headed next.
To tell the truth, I’m still an “aimless wanderer” right now, but I’m not entirely ‘aimless’ anymore… The first step is becoming aware that we have gotten to a point in our lives where we’ve become aimless…then comes learning to face our inner demons and pent up emotions while simultaneously learning about what makes us happy.
Once you discover your happiness…your true purpose…relentlessly chase that dream down. Never let anyone (even yourself!) tell you that something isn’t possible…everyone’s opinion of your actions and situations are based on their own experiences, perspectives and realities.
❤ Emily Shultz ❤